Wha? Huh?

I feel like my life is a blur these days. I’m 36 weeks pregnant (okay, actually 35 weeks and 5 days) and so, so, so tired.

And I’m lazy. Well, I feel lazy. Life isn’t letting me be as lazy as I would like to be. There are still places to be, children to feed and clothe, and laundry that never, ever, ever ends.

I recently told Dave that laundry, dishes, and crumbs are NEVER ENDING. He was sympathetic and did the dishes for me. Actually, he does the dishes a lot. He’s a keeper, that one.

I have completely adopted Scarlet O’Hara’s “I’ll think about it tomorrow” attitude.

Get another crib? Eh. That can wait.
Get bunk beds for the girls? We’ll do that next Saturday.
Get baby clothes out and washed? Yeah, I’ll do that later.

I have nesting desires, but no energy to follow through.

But I can feel the panic starting to set in. I am beginning to FREAK OUT.

FOUR KIDS?!
Olive is only going to be a little more than 15 months old!
Our house is TEENY! How are we going to fit?!
My kids already wear me out! How can I possibly add another one?

Yes, I realize it’s a little too late to go back on this. But still. These are my panicked thoughts as of late.

Then. I think about what’s coming. How can I possibly be freaking out about this?

Miss Olive, just eleven hours old

Miss Olive, just eleven hours old

And those other three monkeys running around here? They are everything to me. As tiring and they can be, I wouldn’t trade them for anything.

Some would call me lucky.

But I know I’m just extremely blessed.

  1. Melissa

    And they’re extremely blessed to have you as their mother! You’re a great Mom, I wish we lived closer so I could watch you in action more and get good ideas for my own family. :)

  2. Liz

    Hang in there Holly. You can do it. I am not saying it isn’t hard – cause HOLY COW. But… we are living in Dave’s parents basement with two bedrooms between the 6 of us and surviving. You can do it!!!

  3. Heath

    I think the freak-out is over the anticipation and the overwhelming feeling of bringing another baby into the mix. Once it happens you will find that everything has a tendency to just “adjust” and life keeps moving. And, yeah….it is a little late to “go back” on this. ROFL You have an amazing little family. Your kids are SO good! And you are a fantastic mother. It will work out. Come what may – and love it! ;-)

    Oh and I am totally on board with the Scarlett Ohara mentality. I adopt that “tomorrow is another day” attitude quite often. It’s a coping mechanism for me. LOL

    Love you!

  4. Denice

    i dont think its lazy. i think its your body telling you to rest while you can cause theres alot of hard work coming!

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